I am starting to get stoked for my trip to Southern Decadence this weekend in New Orleans, LA. Not only have I not ever been to Decadence, but I have also never been to New Orleans. I have wanted to go to there for some time as I have heard some really great things about the place. Hopefully it will be tons of fun. All the travel plans are in place and the beads are ordered... LOL. I have a few special beads for those willing to earn them. I have also made a few purchases for my attire there. Dear God, help us all.
You are a XSYT--Expressive Sentimental Physical Taker. This makes you a Firebrand.
You are volatile, sexy and sexually driven. You're magnetic and fascinating, but you don't really enjoy playing the field -- it makes you nervous and preys on your insecurites. But when you fall for someone you fall hard.
You tend to over-analyze things, so the slightest comment or action from your significant other can send you into a tailspin. You crave attention and validation from your loved ones, so if your friends don't like your partner or your partner doesn't like your friends it makes you suffer. Unfortunately the two are often in conflict -- you have excellent insight with your friends, but in a relationship you are blind. Trust your friends!
You blow hot and cold, with big highs and big lows. This makes the bad times very bad but the good times very good, so you tend to stay in a problem relationship much longer than you should. But when a relationship fails, you hold a grudge. That's not necessarily a bad thing, but make sure your grudge doesn't cloud your vision the other way!
What would help you most in your relationships is confidence. You need someone who can help you feel good about yourself and not worse.
You can be needy and jealous. Fortunately you are cute as hell.
Of the 26814 people who have taken this quiz, 5.9 % are this type.
The problem with business travel by yourself is you end up with a lot of free time on your hands at airports and hotels. And free time equals time to think and reflect, which in my current frame of mind is a bad thing. To avoid having this time to reflect means keeping yourself completely occupied all the time, which is not healthy and can burn you out quickly.
Five or six weeks after getting dumped I feel like I am in this never ending cycle of emotional swings. I cannot seem to extracate myself from the rut I seem to be stuck in. I am left struggling to find the answers to the questions that haunt me night and day. Why doesn't he love me when I could not have loved him more? What about me and our relationship could not satisfy him when I was satisfied? Why did he walk away without actively trying to fix things? How did he do it so easily and seemingly without being affected? How after two years of being together can he not miss what we had when I cannot seem to stop missing it? Was I deluded in thinking that we had something more than what we actually did?
I feel like such a loser and so desperate in not being able to swiftly move on. I feel pathetic even being plagued by these recurring thoughts. I am ashamed that I still have feelings for someone who thinks so little of me. I am angry that he doesn't even have enough respect for me and my dignity to provide me with an explanation of what happened. I am pissed off that I cannot come to closure on this and move on. I am depressed about what I think lies ahead of me now. I hate that I am allowing this to affect my life so much and how I feel about myself. I pray to God these feelings go away and soon.
Thank God I am finally on my way home. It has been a long week and it is going to be a long month. Hopefully the plane will be on-time tonight. I would like to make it home in time to maybe go out for a drink or two. I miss my friends. I am still feeling glum too. I miss the way my life used to be. I don't know how long it is going to take me to get over this feeling or if I ever completely will. I would settle for just making some progress.