As you have probably noticed, I have taken a bit of a holiday break from blogging. Actually, I have taken a bit of a holiday break from anything resembling responsibility altogether. The year that is 2004 had left me feeling beat down and exhausted and I just decided to surrender and give up. Actually I did not lay down and die. But I did do some traveling back to Pennsyltucky to spend time with the family for Christmas. Then I came back to NYC and have been spending some time taking care of personal things, trying to get things in order to start off the New Year on a positive note.
Things are looking up somewhat. There are several hot dating prospects in the works. We will see where they lead. I think my major hurdle to overcome in the New Year is caused by some of the emotional scars left from my last relationship. It seems that when someone actually expresses genuine interest in me that I freak out a little and find some reason to not pursue it. Maybe it is because that I am now a little afraid of any type of commitment. So hopefully I can work that out sooner rather than later.
I am also continuing to make some adjustments to the apartment to make it even more comfortable as I start to enjoy my own company at home again. Between some purchases that I made recently and some Christmas presents from family members, I have been quite domestic lately. There is some new furniture, lampshades, decorations, kitchenware and curtains. I was not exactly Martha-esque, but I was out buying curtain rods today and was hanging valances (with a cigarette in my mouth) today in the kitchen. Some examples:
So I am eager to end the fucking year that was 2004 and am keeping my fingers crossed that 2005 will be much better (it can't be much worse).