Let me ask if you ever had this experience. Have you ever regularly made a dish, say a pasta sauce or something, but were missing an ingredient or two? You ended up missing it because you either didn't know the ingredient should be in the dish or because you just didn't have the ingredient and decided to make due without it? You make this dish so regularly that you actually enjoy it and sort of find it to be satisfying? Then one day you have the dish made the proper way with all the necessary ingredients and you realize just how much better the dish is when it has all of the ingredients in it? After having all the ingredients, having the dish without all the ingredients in it will never again be satisfying and you think about what you had been missing all along and wished you had made it the right way before?
I thought about blogging about how much it hurts when someone that you truly and sincerely hold in the highest esteem, someone who you think walks on water and who can do no wrong disappoints you. But I won't (OK, I did but I won't belabor it). Instead I want to say that with every door that closes (including those that get slammed in your face despite your best efforts to keep the door open), another door opens. So I am going to be taking a few days off from everything... work, blogging, etc... to explore where one of those new doors takes me. So dry your crying eyes. I will back soon and will hopefully be able to clue you in some more about what I have been doing during my brief hiatus. Enjoy the break. I know I will.
I'm broke but I'm happy I'm poor but I'm kind I'm short but I'm healthy, yeah I'm high but I'm grounded I'm sane but I'm overwhelmed I'm lost but I'm hopeful baby What it all comes down to Is that everything's gonna be fine fine fine I've got one hand in my pocket And the other one is giving a high five I feel drunk but I'm sober I'm young and I'm underpaid I'm tired but I'm working, yeah I care but I'm restless I'm here but I'm really gone I'm wrong and I'm sorry baby
What it all comes down to Is that everything's gonna be quite alright I've got one hand in my pocket And the other one is flicking a cigarette And what it all comes down to Is that I haven't got it all figured out just yet I've got one hand in my pocket And the other one is giving the peace sign I'm free but I'm focused I'm green but I'm wise I'm hard but I'm friendly baby I'm sad but I'm laughing I'm brave but I'm chickenshit I'm sick but I'm pretty baby
And what it all boils down to Is that no one's really got it figured out just yet I've got one hand in my pocket And the other one is playing the piano And what it all comes down to my friends Is that everything's just fine fine fine I've got one hand in my pocket And the other one is hailing a taxi cab
It is days like these (wishing you had someone to bunker down with to weather out a storm) that makes me wish I had more of a sense of closure with what happened in my previous relationship. Not that I want the old relationship back. The lyrics of My Immortal by Evanescence say it best... "There's just too much that time cannot erase." But as I hang around the house remembering previous snow storms weathered togethered and feeling a little alone, I ask myself "what happened"... "why did things happen the way they did"... "why did things have to turn out the way they did?" But I guess I just need to suck it up and get over it, because the answers to those questions are never going to come. And even if they did, would it really matter? I just wished this storm had come next weekend.
Well... the snow has started. They are calling for 14-20 inches now. Yee-haw! I don't care. I am all bunkered in. I went to the market last night and the pharmacy today. So I have all the provisions I need to stay in and be all comfy and cozzy. All I need now is a man to snuggle with. Too bad he is not gonna be here until Wednesday. Oh well, better late than never. At least I will be able to get some cleaning and organizing done here. I also plan on watching a lot of mindless TV and doing some reading. Let it snow!
At long last, have these people left no sense of decency? WHAT THE FUCK?!?! Ridiculous!!! SpongeBob SquarePants is gay now... JESUS CHRIST. These people sicken me... literally... they make me ill. The video in question, produced by the We Are Family Foundation contains a rendition of the 1979 hit song We Are Family but contains no reference to homosexual rights or sexual orientation. So the freaks at the the Mississippi-based (that in-and-of-itself speaks volumes) American Family Association had to invent some.
"On the surface, the project may appear to be a worthwhile attempt to foster greater understanding of cultural differences. However, a short step beneath the surface reveals that one of the differences being celebrated is homosexuality."
Of course "greater understanding of cultural differences" is code-speak for celebrating homosexuality. You can be different... just not gay! Fuck you, you fucking morons!
TO ALL THE KIDS WHO SURVIVED the 1930's, 40's, & 50's, 60's, and 70's!
First, we survived being born to mothers who smoked and/or drank while they carried us.
They took aspirin, ate blue cheese dressing and didn't get tested for diabetes.
Then after that trauma, our baby cribs were covered with bright colored lead-based paints.
We had no childproof lids on medicine bottles, doors or cabinets and when we rode our bikes, we had no helmets.
As children, we would ride in cars with no seat belts or air bags.
Riding in the back of a pick up on a warm day was always a special treat.
We drank water from the garden hose and NOT from a bottle.
We shared one soft drink with four friends, from one bottle and NO ONE actually died from this.
We ate cupcakes, bread and butter and drank soda pop with sugar in it, but we weren't overweight because WE WERE ALWAYS OUTSIDE PLAYING!
We would leave home in the morning and play all day, as long as we were back when the streetlights came on.
No one was able to reach us all day. And we were O.K.
We would spend hours building our go-carts out of scraps and then ride down the hill, only to find out we forgot the brakes. After running into the bushes a few times, we learned to solve the problem.
We did not have Playstations, Nintendo's, X-boxes, no video games at all, no 99 channels on cable, no video tape movies, no surround sound, no cell phones, no personal computers, no Internet or Internet chat rooms..........WE HAD FRIENDS and we went outside and found them!
We fell out of trees, got cut, broke bones and teeth and there were no lawsuits from these accidents.
We made up games with sticks and tennis balls and ate worms and although we were told it would happen, we did not put out very many eyes, nor did the worms live in us forever.
We rode bikes or walked to a friend's house and knocked on the door or rang the bell, or just walked in and talked to them!
Little League had tryouts and not everyone made the team. Those who didn't had to learn to deal with disappointment. Imagine that!!
The idea of a parent bailing us out if we broke the law was unheard of. They actually sided with the law!
This generation has produced some of the best risk-takers, problem solvers and inventors ever!
The past 50 years have been an explosion of innovation and new ideas.
We had freedom, failure, success and responsibility, and we learned HOW TO DEAL WITH IT ALL!
And YOU are one of them! CONGRATULATIONS!
You might want to share this with others who have had the luck to grow up as kids, before the lawyers and the government regulated our lives for our own good.
Kind of makes you want to run through the house with scissors, doesn't it?!
Did you ever just have one of those days? You do or say something that you think is funny, only to regret it for a long time after? I think Prince Harry had one of those "what was I thinking" moments recently.