There's a fine, fine line between a lover and a friend; There's a fine, fine line between reality and pretend;
And you never know 'til you reach the top if it was worth the uphill climb. There's a fine, fine line between love
And a waste of time.
There's a fine, fine line between a fairy tale and a lie;
And there's a fine, fine line between "You're wonderful" and "Goodbye."
I guess if someone doesn't love you back it isn't such a crime,
But there's a fine, fine line between love
And a waste of your time.
And I don't have the time to waste on you anymore.
I don't think that you even know what you're looking for.
For my own sanity, I've got to close the door
And walk away...
There's a fine, fine line between together and not
And there's a fine, fine line between what you wanted and what you got.
You gotta go after the things you want while you're still in your prime... There's a fine, fine line between love
And a waste of time.
Lyrics to "There's a Fine, Fine Line" from the Avenue Q Soundtrack
Thanks to the miracle of DVR, I have been able to stay abreast of several reality shows. I have a few to catch up on too, but we will save most of them for a rainy Sunday reality marathon. Of the ones I have kept up to date on, here are some of my observations.
Very few surprises on American Idol 5 so far, in my opinion. I think the two main contenders (from my humble and uneducated perspective) as the Final 12 get ready to show their stuff are Chris and Mandisa. The one person who I was surprised did not make the final 12 was Gedeon.
A few oh-so-gay friends now have me hooked on Project Runway 2. The finals were the other night and Chloe bested Daniel and Santino at Olympus Fashion Week. I am happy she won as I really liked her and hated Santino (the person everyone either loved to hate or hated to love). but, I really thought Daniel's line was the best. This of course is based on my complete lack of any knowledge in the are of fashion, especially women's and the fact that fashion-wise I am extremely conservative. But I though his clothes were more versatile, covered a broad range of attire and were extremely wearable. Chloe's line was most likely deemed more creative than Daniel's but I felt some of the pieces were not very wearable. But what do I know? I did feel that the most stunning piece was from Santiago's line. I loved the look of the dress and the coloring of the fabric and the way it was designed in that 40's Hollywood film noir style. (Can I get my gay card back now?)
The fat lawyer dude, Brent, on The Apprentice 5 really is annoying and has to go (dude, what's up with that hair... get a haircut if product won't control it... geez, and you go into court looking like that?... glad you ain't my lawyer). However, I was glad to see the two people go this week that got fired. Though as The Donald said, Brent won't be far behind. It would appear to me that this lot is filled with even more spoiled, whiny prima donnas than normally. Although probably not a lot of other people do, I like Lenny the Russian guy. I also am annoyed by the pretentious English guy, Sean (gay or English/European?).
The other shows that I have been recording but need to get caught up on are Amazing Race 9 and Survivor 12: Exile Island. Amzing Race Family really put me off that series, although I think I can get back into it now that they went back to the original format. I also don't know why Survivor hasn't been much of a priority. I still have some episodes of Survivor 11: Guatemala to watch. Like I said, give me one good rainy Sunday and I will be all caught up.
This is where I spend my days now. It's sort of barren right now, not very personalized yet and it's a little small. But I like it and it is in a corner so it is quiet and has a lot of privacy. I stopped at Barnes & Noble and picked up a dictionary, thesaurus,
and illustrated medical dictionary... so there will be something more
on the shelves.
The woman who sits next to me works remotely most of the time, so she is often not there. The woman who shares a wall with me is really cool. She likes martinis and sparkly things (sounds like a gay man, eh?) and has a good sense of humor. My boss sits on another floor and workes remotely two days a week. So I will be able to work independently, which I like.
In anticipation for the new job that starts tomorrow, I decided to try to appear more professional and I shaved my beard back down to just a goatee. I just think it looks more professional (although I did have the beard when I interviewed) and you know what they say about first impressions. I have had the beard for probably a little over a year, expect for a few brief periods when I went back to the goatee. So before heading out for the latest Salsa Saturday with one of my bestest buds, Joe, I decided to loose the beard. It is funny, Joe didn't even notice.
My new boss called today, just to make sure everything is set and to talk about a few things. I am really very excited (and a little nervous, I must admit).
Tonight, I made a second big life change (some of you might not think it is big, but I really think I will be challenged for a while). Yesterday, I wrapped up my old job (new one starts on Monday). Today, I left the PC world and entered the Apple world. Yep... you got it. In fact this is the first post made from my new laptop. Even Typepad is different (and not as good) on the Powerbook. I don't know if it is Apple or just the Safari software.
In any event, I have to return my Dell laptop to my old company and wanted and needed to buy a new laptop. I let A LOT of friends who are Apple users to talk me into making the switch. So tonight with the help of a friend and teammate, I went to the Apple Store and bought a PowerBook G4.
Wow! Big change. Exciting, but also a little intimidating. I used to be a wiz (OK maybe not a wiz but at least competent) with a PC. Now, I feel so clueless. But it is coming to me. Apple seems to be intuitive. But, I have a lot of old habits to break. If my Mom could make the change from PCs to Apple, I should be able to figure it out.
Wish me luck. By the way, there are more announcements of changes to come. Stay tuned. I told you I was making a few.
Come on now... is there any doubt that Chris Daughtrey should be the next American Idol? Two weeks into the final 24, he is heads and shoulders above the competition. I mean there are some other notably good performers.
Although I think Chris does deserves to win, that is not to say that he will. There are a lot more things beyond performing that affect peoples' decisions when voting. And one thing that might hurt him is his rocker style, which may not be as universally appealing as Ace's more pop style and his dreamy looks (not for me but millions of young girls). Actually, I am sure Chris is really popular with the whole musclebear, a-list bear, fashion bear (or whatever they are calling themselves these days) crowd that one can find at Snaxx here in NYC. Personally, on looks alone, I will admit to having a thing for Sway.
Those who know me might find it surprising because, although his name is Jose, he is not Latino, which some would say is exclusive John-chow. They would be wrong and probably do not know me as well as they think. Anyway I do find myself attracted to Sway's slightly thuggish, beefy, good looks, attitude and style. Lately I find myself being increasingly into to a certain type of Philippine guy. In fact, I had the pleasure of meeting and spending some quality time with one really sweet Philippine rugger who lives North of the border. I really don't think Sway will win. In fact I thought his performance this week was just OK. But he is fun to watch. I love shows with good eye candy. By the way, I myself would not through Chris out of bed should I find him there... LOL.
Yeah, yeah, yeah... I know this a day late but HappyMardi Gras y'all.
I still can't decide if I think that the celebrations in New Orleans yesterday were appropriate or not. I have heard both sides of the argument (how could you not, every news outlet in the country seemed to be there) and still don't know how I feel. Ultimately, if it makes the people of New Orleans happy and boosts morale for these people who have been through hell, then I guess I am for it. And if those who are in positions of authority do the right thing (which is something that is still highly questionable in that town), hopefully significant amounts of the money that was generated from Mardi Gras will be funneled directly to people who are rebuilding their lives and the neighborhoods who were devastated.
I am really glad I made it to Southern Decadence two years ago and got to see the city pre-Katrina. I really do doubt the city will ever get back to the way it was. But one thing was obvious from all the broadcasts from Bourbon Street yesterday... the city is not going to roll over and die. It will claw its way back somehow. I am glad that the media did a good job of balancing the the images of the partying with images of the devastation that remains in many neighborhoods.
Every now and then the AOL welcome page has something interesting on it, like today. They had a list of things to avoid by sign.
Cancer(June 21 - July 22) Your crab shell comes in handy, Cancer, because without it you are all mush. When your security is threatened, you go into protection mode.
What to avoid: Bungee jumping; risky investments; an empty cupboard; long business trips; unemotional partners; fast food; snow camping; biker bars.
Your survival pack: Home-cooked meals; a down comforter; old friends; photo albums; family keepsakes; good chocolate.
Biker bars?!?! Why on earth would I want to avoid those? And I hardly think "unemotonal partners" sums up all the things I should avoid, though it is a start. But where are the cheaters, liars, losers and psychos on this list? LOL... like I need a warning from AOL to tell me to avoid those. Nah, life's lessons have placed them permanently (for better or worse) on my internal watch list.
There was also another link on AOL. This one to bad habits by sign, and bingo... right on the head:
Cancer – If you've ever wondered how Cancers stay so sweet, take a look at their sugar intake. This sign loves cookies, candy, and ice cream. An occasional indulgence is fine, but too much dessert can take a toll on waist lines and energy levels. What Crabs are really seeking is oral gratification [emphasis added]. Sugar-free gum or dried fruit provides a healthy distraction from candy crunching.